Hello everyone,
In Chapter Thirteen Mordecai has finally come to the conclusion that he might not EVER be going back to the Verge, back to the war where he belongs. A part of him is ok with this. After all, on Earth there is AG and he’s drawn to her in a way he doesn’t quite understand. But an angel needs a purpose. He NEEDS to be of service to his God, so that means Gideon has been assigned to take him on a ride along of his duties as a Guardian Angel.
Neither angel is happy about this….
Mordecai doesn’t understand what it is to have to submit to human free will, even if the consequences are not always in the best interest of the humans that make them. And Gideon is not sure how he will ever make this angel understand what it takes to be a Guardian.
“…It was not as he had expected. It was not just wiping tears and holding hands. It was not just protecting humans from their humanity. It was more. It was the joyful tears of a new life, the tears of losing a charge that you had ushered throughout their entire life. It was the anger at decisions they made against advice and urging. It was watching them fall or fly, win or fail. It was knowing when you stood over their broken and bloody bodies that it was not your duty to heal them though the power rested in your hands. The restraint of self, the withholding of power and Light, when all you wanted to do was help, it was the tragedy of being bound by the Tennents, bound by duty that broke your heart.
He spent a day walking beside the Guardian and realized there were other battlefields than the Verge, other weapons than swords and other enemies besides the Forgotten. There were Daemos and Shade, Sin Eater and DownCast, but he learned very quickly that the most deadly enemies were the humans themselves. Their depressions, their doubts, their fears and pain they inflicted on those around them. He watched the Guardian and wondered how he had not Fallen, how he still could retain such Light. He also could not understand how he did not fight harder for those that were his, how he did not make them behave and choose a path that would lead to their ultimate happiness. He could not understand why he did not force them to walk the Path back to the Source. Was it not his duty to make sure they learned what they should in this life? There was so much he realized he did not understand about what it meant to be a Guardian….” Angel’s Gate by L Becker
Well, folks, until next time!
L
